There goes an idiom,
“You did this for me?”
“Child is a father of man”
-William Shakespeare
But actually we never anticipate how fast a child becomes a
Man and we no longer look upto that toddler as a child play with toys but with
an adult playing with responsibilities and emotions. And yet as we keep piling
on birthdays one after another we expect that such an extravagant amount of time
passed by just while you were standing and watching life. Today, I’m 20 years
old and yet when look back to those years in the past, they seem like a
perfectly strewn flawless pearl necklace but when you witness it from nearer it
can’t seem to resist the fact that it does have some flaws. In a melodramatic
way I can’t say that my life has exactly been a bed of roses or daffodils right
out of a twilight movie(their extravagant charm still fantasies me nonetheless
), nor a streak of pathos ri
ght outside from the movie SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE. But it has been
a mixture of both. And when I look back I see those things completely mesmerizing and nostalgic.
Just as sir D.H.Lawrence said in his poem THE PIANO
“The glamour
of childish days is upon me,
My manhood is
cast down in the flood of remembrance,
I weep like
a child for the past”
And, yes I must say that it does let
down tears in my eyes when my heart yearns to recreate those moments once
again. At times those memories like traveling on vehicle with your grandmother
who is shouting to explain you
something, but you understand nothing while the people around get the lesson of
their lives or when you just travel an extra mile to your friend’s house before
leaving for tuitions, using a continuous tautology of words just to earn the
criticism of their words or going around to McDonalds to grab a bag of large French
fries who had a bad day at college or grabbing an ice-cream with a friend even
though you have cold saying that they are good for health. Looking at those
days it doesn’t matter how much these things take a toll on you- how much your
energy is drained or how much these things cost you, at the end of the days
these will be the memories that will make your life worth living. Actually it’s
not the money or energy that’s most important it’s the smile of your loved ones
that’s important at the end of the day. You wouldn’t like them to say THANK YOU
but simple words
“You did this for me?”
And a smile
Those are the things for which you
could cycle Tour De France on a tricycle.
Even the ways of acting weird in
front of your parents, making yourself look insane in front of ten other people
but their simple smile changes the insanity or eccentric behaviour into a
worthwhile memory for which you could go to asylum for the rest of your life. And
yet now when I look back on this days it doesn’t matter who gifted you what or
who said what. But the smiles they gave will last for eternity in your mind. The
small dimples, the freckles around the eyes and the minimising of eyes just to
give a perfect look and those blushing red cheeks strike an arrow straight to
your heart. Thus on this birthday a toast to friendship with a 1933 Bollinger (James
Bond exquisite) to all those friends who made my life worth living with those
smiles. People always say life isn’t about all hay and sunshine but in a
worthwhile it actually is, and when those mystical dark days come those
memories will still bind you by the force of love you have felt for eternity.
